So… here I go, starting a BLOG. 

For years and years I wrote on the Open Diary. And then my soon-to-be-ex-husband decided that he was going to “supervise” me there, and in all other aspects of my life. And writing stopped being a safe outlet for my feelings, and started to become yet another thing that was controlled and watched and monitored and could get me punished at any time. And so I walked away from my Open Diary (1998-2006), deleted the whole thing, and shut myself up tightly inside myself.

Until I left him. And I found the desire to write, the desire to have feedback, was still very much there. And so I gathered up my courage, and went back to OD. Only to find that I no longer had the sense of community and friendship that I had had before I left. I no longer connected with the people who had been my “favourites” before, I no longer had people who were willing to read what I wrote… everyone moved on. The people that had become real friends were still there. The people who were just readers were gone… and I had no interest in cultivating new people at this stage.

I just wanted to write.

And so I looked towards the idea of a blog. A place where my ideas stood alone and were not buried by the millions of posts that were being generated by little emo kids, or mommy diaries, or just the other hundreds of entries that seem to happen every hour. I wanted to stand alone. I wanted to move to something that reflected ME… and so I decided to get my own domain and start up my own blog out here in the middle of the unknown universe.