Frozen Nowhere

This week I have had the kids, which has meant that I am going out a lot LESS than I was last week. This is the nature of my life, and a situation in which I am very familiar — as this is JUST the same freaking situation that STBX FORCED me to live under when I was married to him, only instead of the KIDS coming and going in my life, it was HIM doing it to us.

But I digress.

I am still feeling a bit stung by the rejection that I recieved from Entropy, but its managable.

I have continued to talk to Reg online every night, and he’s hoping to be able to come over…

Last night, after a few minor set backs with behavioural issues with my daughter, the three of us managed to get out and go to Wal-Mart after work.

I have to say, doing ANYTHING after work, after I pick them up from the babysitter, is a major production for us. I get off work at 5pm. I then have a 30 minute drive through traffic to pick them up at the babysitter. So, by the time I have all my chicks gathered up and tied down into their car seats, its usually around 5:45pm. A normal evening would consist of me taking the kids directly home, getting BoyChild working on any homework he’s been sent back from school while…

I seriously need to pour words out of my soul the way that I have been doing lately. When I am not writing I am considering things, and reviewing the way things are going and what I want and where I am going and what I am doing.

Now, I have avoided discussing this matter here because I am not sure if  K was reading what I wrote here. And I have decided this: I do not care if he does. This is MY space, my project, and MY life. I have a disclaimer, and I stand by it because it is how I feel. IF you are upset, keep it to yourself, see the disclaimer.

I’m SERIOUS. Just…

 Serin pointed out to me that in the past few weeks I could have managed to finish NaNoWriMo if I had put my effort to a story rather than blog entries. I am sure he’s right.

If you look at the sheer amount I have written and posted on both Open Diary and FrozenNowhere you will see this:

• I wrote almost every weekday.
• I posted at least 1 entry per day, usually more, sometimes posting on both in the same day
• each entry is over 1000 words, on average I think they have  been around 1800-2000 words
• so in 2 weeks, an average of 2 posts a day, 5 days a

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I’m trying not to want to throttle the people who live in the suite above me. I really am.

I’m TRYING to be a compassionate and understanding person. I am trying NOT to be a complaining bitch who lives in the basement.

But, come on now people, WORK WITH ME!!!

The neighbors above me seem to have a new obsession. I hear its all the rage with… well… with pretty much EVERYONE out there (except me, because despite the fact that I am internet and computer savvy, can usually tech support myself and take apart my computer without too much distress, I don’t have a Wii, PlayStation 3, or XBox 360)…

Yeah, they are into RockBand.

In a MAJOR…