Alone in the office

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I don’t expect to get a great deal of work done today. That’s not being silly, its just reality. I’m a bit burnt out this week, and I am looking forward to seeing the “really great guy” later this evening, and Christmas planning is kicking my ass, and I am overwhelmed at work and the guys aren’t in.

Today I am supposed to be doing invoicing. While it doesn’t SOUND difficult, there are a few projects are broken into small “progress” invoices, and this is where things start to get insane. Heck, sometimes we have a fully executed contract, noted and copied at BOTH offices, and we can’t agree on what the contract value is. And then there are the issues that come with changes to the contract, which usually happen AFTER I have sent out the invoice, which mean that the invoice I sent out is WRONG.

And this is what I am trying to deal with today:

1.progress invoices for big projects to which  I didn’t do the original 6 progress invoices… and this is a freaking MESS because I can’t figure out what might need to be done with the invoice, because it has to go out on Monday. But my manager seems to be as math-challenged as I am, and his numbers on one page don’t match the actual computer calculations, so I am not sure WHICH is correct. I have gone over and over it, but I don’t know where he is pulling the numbers from, because the listed numbers on the standard progress don’t match the numbers he has given me for the invoice.

2. Credit invoices for jobs where the project managers got together AFTER the final invoice was sent, and decided to issue change orders. SO, that means I get to go through the invoices and determine what portion is to be credited back. And that means a NEGATIVE invoice. Now, what the CLIENT wants is a completely NEW invoice issued… which my head office, since we are a publicly traded company, does NOT do. So there is a lot of bickering back and forth.

3. Regular invoices.

4. Dossier updates, document management, mail outs…

And I so don’t feel in the mood to try and slog through this all, its just been such a week at work that I feel frazzled by the non-splendiferousness of the work-a-day world. I mean, I have gotten through payroll issues, HR requests, SCM changes, memos and edicts from the divisional boss, changes, notes, recieveing, re-recieving, corrections, and tracking… and I’m, quite frankly spent. I know I have to do it, and I will go through as much as I can on my own, but today I just do NOT feel like I am qualified to do the accounts recievable (lets just state, for the record, that when I was hired the AR was handled by a part time person who had done it for YEARS in this industry, and when she suddenly decided to retire, she just stopped coming in (and as a casual hourly employee what can I do, fire her?) and the few times she was in last I was so busy with the other 40 duties of my job that I couldn’t focus with her to be trained. So I am flying blind with no support, no training, and trying to balance the various demands out from every department in the organization.

So… I’m working away. It is super quiet in here, without Gordo sitting in his office complaining to himself or Dave in his office chattering on the phone. I could get so much done, and I have gotten somewhere with things, but I am dragging today.

I am looking forward to seeing RGG (really great guy) later tonight, making cookie dough, ordering pizza, and knitting. Friday is totally a cheater night for us, and i feel bad about it but after a week of trying to rush home and make meals, wash dishes, toss kids in tub, do laundry, sweep up, clean up, tidy, and organize the house, I feel like collapsing on the couch and snuggling up with RGG after the kids go to bed. Yep, i’m feeling very twitterpated right now over this boy. I can’t wait to see him on weekends, and although I know that this feeling will lessen over time, I am really LIKING the heady anticipation that encroaches into my mind starting Thursday nights.

I have met his daughters. I think I want him to meet my kids… and I think that I will be inviting him and his daughters to come with my kids and I swimming at a hotel that I got a free night (for my kids and I, from the hotel, because my company does SERIOUS business with them all year) in a Medieval Castle room there and they have 2 indoor pools. And its more fun for the kids if there are other kids there. I do not think its too fast, because I think there is at the VERY least serious potential that even if this doesn’t go anywhere or it fizzles, RGG and I will remain friends because we are both just “that” way…

So…

Its frazzling and anxious, because I don’t know if I owe it to STBX to “warn” him that I will be introducing the kids to my friend (because he “warned” me this past time, but I know it was only at the insistence of his friend (because, he wants her back, and that was sorta a stipulation — he ask me if it is okay if she is introduced to the kids (and really, if he’s sure about her, what the hell business is it of mine?) or they were through) but he hasn’t told me any OTHER time that he introduced them to girlfriends. Part of me thinks it is just polite to tell him, but part of me thinks it is not really HIS business and inviting him into my business is just stupid.

Because, as much as I want to be an adult, I know that if I say “hey, I have been dating this guy and I am going to introduce him, as a friend to the kids, what do you think?” I am going to hear from STBX how it is too soon, and he’s going to think that that means HE has a valid opinion in the matter of who I date, when I introduce the kids, and who I can have in my life and when… and that’s not true. He will bring up K, and how he assumed I was cheating with K on him, and how it was a disaster when I introduced K to the kids (which it wasn’t, because they knew K because they knew his son first and K was just my friend and the dad of THEIR friend)…

Seriously, I don’t think it is STBX’s business who I am dating or how long or serious it is. I am not asking his PERMISSION, because I am not intending to replace him as a father in their lives, and they know that. They are not too terribly worried about ME remarrying, I have heard that over and over that they would LIKE me to remarry (and I’m not sure about that issue yet) but that they are afraid of their father remarrying. I’m not sure why that is… but I have not had an issue with them and me dating. I will let STBX know I am going to, but I will not choose not to based on HIS reaction, and he has no right to question my relationships, that’s just how it is.

 
 

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