Frozen Nowhere

Believe it or not, things are super fantastic great right now… other than the tinge of blue I feel at being truely alone for the first time in 2 weeks, now that RGG has gone back to his home in small town Saskatchewan and I am left here with my 2 kittens. I know the blue will settle in on me in the next few hours, and i will get through it, and I know that I will talk to him again on MSN or the phone or text in the next few days… 

The last few weeks have been INCREDIBLE for me. I know I have been away from the blog for this time frame and that means that I haven’t been updating things as much as I usually do. I have been busy… wonderfully, happily BUSY… 

The last few posts were of the fun that RGG, the kids and I had on Yule night.  Since then RGG has been over to visit, the kids and I went to Edmonton for Christmas with my family, and RGG and I have spent the most wonderful week together (was it only a week? it feels so much longer) with his kids and his family and friends, I have gone out with my friends G and C (who returned to Canada from Brazil), I finally have living room blinds thanks to RGG, I have started organizing and decluttering all the stuff I have accumulated in my house… and I have a renewed sense of who I am and what I want out of life. 

And so… because it is a new year and a new beginning…. the things I will work on this year:

• I will get my eating habits back on track. I will stop skipping meals and keep on top of eating so that I don’t let the stress of my life build and make me sick
• I will not let the negativity of the past few years get to me, I will start to move forward and eliminate the toxic elements from my life. I am letting go of unnecessary things, I am cleaning house in my life, of all the physical objects as well as emotional and spiritual things holding me back.
•  I will not allow other people to tell me how to feel anymore, I will trust my SELF
• I am going to get back to the podcasting thing, as soon as I get a bit more of the clutter worked out (laugh), and I am going to start the process of getting back in touch with people of like mind
• I am going to laugh more, I am going to experience the world more. I am not going to be afraid of things — not what other people say, not what other people THINK, not about what will happen, not of failure — and I will make memories
• I will allow myself to feel passion
• I will enjoy the time I have on this earth. I will create connections. I will share my joy with my children and their joy will connect us. 
  • I will find more things to do together and relax the weekend rules a bit more, now that I have them for 2 weeks starting this coming friday
• I will allow myself to enjoy my sexuality
• I will allow myself to enjoy my spirituality, and I will watch where it takes me, the flow of my soul, and not worry so much about LABELS
• I will WRITE
• I will knit
• I will create
• I will take pictures
• I will document my life