Jan 26
I haz freedom…
I need pictures. I think that I will have to do the picture posts eventually, I’m just lazy, after all.
You see… most of the writing I do is at work, when I’m not crazy-busy (which is most of the time right now) or trying to wrangle kids or cats to do my bidding.
Being a mother is hard work.
I think I should try taking over the world… its likely a lot easier and I would get more sleep at night.
Do you think that people bent on world domination really spend their nights fretting over the brand of cat food to buy or what to pack for lunches 2 days from now or if the laundry detergent smells fresh enough?
I seriously doubt it.
After all, the cats will eat just about anything I give them (and anything the scrounge off the floors or out of garbage cans if they can insert their dastardly paws inside to get things out), the kids have rarely (if ever) complained about what is in their lunch as long as they get a lunch packed, and I seem to be the only one that goes around sniffing the laundry.
Maybe I just want a more exciting life.
Maybe that’s why I blog?
I want to reach out there, I want to make connections… but I am not doing well at this and I don’t know why… how does one go about collecting people who read and whom they can read? After a year of working on this I am still stumped and I am still pretty much unread as far as I can tell — google data is confusing because I get things stating that 8 visitors came to my blog yesterday…
But only Serin ever notes me!
Which makes me wonder if I am doing things WRONG, because I might be… but what am I doing wrong?
The opinions seem to be varied… and who knows if they are the kinds of things that I need to look at either…
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I have been criticized because originally I wanted to use this as a sounding off board for my SPIRITUAL Path, which when I started out I thought was Wicca.
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having been since told that I am not Wiccan (by various “authorities” on the subject) for a variety of reasons, I have been questioning my Path.
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having no set statement any longer (am I wiccan? Wiccan? can I even call myself “Pagan” without being jumped on and pummelled?) of my faith… I have lost the feeling of what it is to be a Pagan person because it feels that the “community” has drastically changed in the years I was sitting on the sidelines.
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having lost the feel for my spirituality, the podcast that I had started quickly dissolved into redundancy… I was not an “authority” on any Pagan subject, therefore it was unlikely that I would have topics that anyone within the “community” would be interested in… and that sorta shut down my enthusiasm for the project
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I also NEVER recieved any feedback from the few Pagan Podcasters out there that I respected and whom I had written to regarding the project
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I had no idea how to promote myself
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I had a series of technology issues…
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Being PRESSURED by someone who had no right to make spiritual demands of me put me off even looking at this aspect of my life even more, resulting in more “stuck” feelings on the subject and more avoidance.
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My writing style does not translate to blog
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My background, while pretty, distracts from the blog
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Not enough pictures in posts
Who knows…
I note because you’re important. Well, that and I enjoy teasing you, and doing so across platforms just makes it funnier. But mostly because you’re important, and I’ve gotten yelled at for not reacting to posts, even though I’m prone to silence.
Here’s something I’ve noticed from that other place. If I write more than one topic in a post, any responses I get are reduced, and they tend to only respond to one topic. So I try to focus on a single topic. Unless I’ve just got no ideas.
Here’s something else I’ve noticed. Having to put an email on my comments is a heavy deterrent not to comment on other people’s blogs. I don’t know how to get around that one.
The only think I know that seems to work is to keep talking. And whatever moral authority other people might claim, you remember that you’re the one with the moral authority to judge you. Nobody else.
You’re a ninja. The sword is proof.