Hi there, long time no see
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RGG said he loved me out loud. I mean, I KNEW that already since we had been dancing around it for a few weeks before he said it, but it was nice that he actually said it out loud. I have to admit that I was kind of shocked, because we had been joking around and watching a romantic movie at the time and he went all suddenly serious on me and told me that he had to tell me something. I have to admit that I tend to think the worst in situations like that (laugh) but it was good. In case there was any doubt I told him I loved him too…
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We have had a lot of time together this month, both with and without the kids.
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My house sold.
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I will be getting some of my furniture back.
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I have been getting to the gym once or twice a week and doing Wii Fit to keep getting in shape. I have not lost or gained any weight, but have gotten up to 110lbs and maintained it. I had previously dropped to about 103 lbs.
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I got my hair done and I love the way it looks, and even better, I like that I have no more gray showing.
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I had RGG’s good friend do my hair for me, which gave me a bit of time to get to know her (she’s very important in his life, and therefore I want to make sure she’s okay with me too) and get a little more dirt on him (laugh)… I came away with the knowledge that RGG is “the nicest man on the planet”… this is apparently a sore spot for him, as a few (at least 2) women had used that as a reason not to be with him. But for me, having a truely “nice guy” is a great thing.
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and he is the “nicest guy on the planet”. Sometimes I can’t believe how truely caring and considerate he is, given that he’s, well… a man. I mean, here is a man that is concerned about what I want to do, how I feel, making me comfortable, and making sure that everyone around him gets their needs met as well as HIS. The only thing I can complain is that he always forgets NOT to give me “love bites” (laughing) and then thinks he’s funny… (I kinda think its funny too, jsyk)
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I haven’t heard from the Stalker for a while, which I am taking as a sign that he’s finally decided to move on and stop trying to “be friends” by throwing nasty emails at me over and over. I don’t know what I will do with the blank book that he gave me, maybe I should just send it back… but that might be encouragement
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Have been discussing the possibility of taking a trip with RGG. I can’t say for sure that this will ever happen, but its a nice thing to think about. I am sure that we will eventually take a trip out to Edmonton, but I can’t really see (right now) a way to take a longer trip somewhere outside of Canada. Not with both of us having to juggle jobs and finances and kids’ schedules. But we can try, and we can plan, and maybe we can make it happen.
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Still haven’t had the divorce papers given to my from my lawyer. Yes, the house has sold, yes things are progressing, but I want to see the light at the end of the tunnel here, and that means having the divorce finalized. So much is riding on this:
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I want to know, definitively, how much I owe my lawyer so I can start to PAY that off
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I need to know how much marital debts I will have after the house sale, so I can get a loan to deal with paying that back
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I want to change my name back to my maiden name
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I want to get a passport IN MY MAIDEN NAME
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I don’t want to be MARRIED to theEX anymore. I mean, I have no plans to get remarried, but the fact that he still has a legal hold on me ticks me off. I know I will be tied to him for a considerable amount of time because of the kids, but I do not have to be legally “his” especially since the lawyers agreed that we’ve met all the requirements to get a divorce
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I want to throw a PARTY (laugh) to celebrate my freedom from theEx…
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I have been having anxiety issues for the last month that I can’t account for. I know that things have been crazy, and the re-appearance of the Stalker (even briefly) in my life has hindered me feeling comfortable in my own home, but the anxiety has really hit me a few times.
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I have realized that I am getting comfortable with RGG and being in his home, but I am still a bit uncomfortable in his space.
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I know RGG understands how it feels to have a panic attack, that doesn’t make it any less embarassing when I get sideswiped by anxiety I can’t control.
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I want to KNOW what is triggering it, so I can face it down and deal with it.
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I have had periods of time where I have really doubted RGG and how he feels, especially given that he’s almost completely cut out ALL avenues of communication during weekdays. That means, not only is he not on MSN anymore he isn’t online at all, and he doesn’t phone me. It makes me very ANXIOUS (yes, i know, this is likely one of the many triggers here) because I feel communication is important. He says its a telecommunications issue — that he’s having problems with his internet and phone — and I believe him, but I still feel weird about not having a way to talk to him during the week. I feel anxious that he might be doing it on purpose, that it might be some sort of test, and so every time I reach out and phone him I might be potentially FAILING this test. I hate “tests” like that…
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Missing my kids. I am not used to the 2 week break from my kids, and not having them in my life makes me question my identity — when I don’t have my kids with me I feel like my identity of “mother” has been ripped away from me, and I hate the feeling that by allowing theEx to have joint custody with me I have admitted that I am not a good mother. I would MUCH RATHER have my kids 100% of the time and NOT have time away from them… but he finds that unacceptable.
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Finances. Taxes, savings, RRSPs, debts, plans for the future… its all becoming a bit overwhelming. I want to consolidate what I owe so that I can start to work towards 3 things:
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becoming debt free again
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gathering a down payment for a place of my own
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planning the trip for my kids and I to DisneyWorld, Orlando, that they have been talking about for years
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Things I need to deal with that I don’t want to deal with, such as having to buy things for my house to have it set up correctly, GirlChild’s birthday, and having to move all my furniture around, hoping that my furniture that is being returned to me next weekend will FIT, having to worry about buying more clothes for the kids to wear…
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