Frozen Nowhere

If you knew me in “real life” you might find it weird that I keep a blog… or not…
 
I have a strained relationship with words and writing. Its almost as my ability for hands-on creativity has a restraining order against me, I must stay at least 100 cm away from anything remotely creative and only admire from a distance.
 
Yet I have a blog, and I occasionally write here. I have also kept an online “diary” relatively successfully for about 10 years on Open Diary. Not as a daily practice, but at least a few posts a month… So there is proof that I *CAN* write…
 
Just not the way I want to… not the

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The decision to leave theEx was not an overnight one, by any means. We talked about it and fought about it for years, I attempted to leave him twice, only to be made to believe that he would start trying to make changes WITH me both times.
 
In the end I walked away with my cat, the kids, and our clothes and possessions, and we went to live with my mother until I could find an apartment, get a vehicle, and get back on my feet.
 
The fly in the ointment was that less than a week after I left my marriage the politicking that had been happening behind my back at work caught up to me

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I am an avid blog reader, even when I don’t seem to be able to put words together for my own blog… and a few days ago I came across this post on one of my favourite blogs The Freak Revolution regarding how sometimes it hits the author that she has changed.
 
I have been struggling with the idea of change. 
 
 I have been struggling with a lot of things lately:

• divorce process that is held up by theEx’s refusal to comply with court orders
• not having full communication with my lawyer because of fear of legal costs spiraling out of control
• financial stresses
• feeling ignored

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At least this is the line that Reg is going to hold to… Puppies are cute, kittens are cute… babies are cute, SOMETIMES (laugh)… but apparently appliances are NOT “cute”.
 
 I contend that my new cell phone is, in fact, “cute”.
 
So… yeah… I went ahead and just replaced the cell phone after all, I kinda had to.
 
When I called the company yesterday they told me that I had to go back to the dealer that I signed up with to see if there was anything that they could do to repair the phone. I figured it was worth a try, so I rushed through traffic to make it there JUST IN TIME…
 
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For the last year and a half I have used the same cell phone — a Samsung m510 in green — and had been very happy with it. I had moved from a service provider that did not have coverage for me for most of my province to the crown owned service provider that allowed me to be covered everywhere (with very FEW exceptions in the most remote areas) for not only analog services, but also digital services like text messaging…
 
Until this weekend… when my phone decided that it was pretty much DONE with the business of acutally being a PHONE. Suddenly my phone was not ringing (or vibrating OR blinking) when calls were incoming, even when

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