Okay, so there is a interesting internet meme thing that has been going on in the blogs that I have been reading lately, and since I’m having a craptacular day, feeling really bad about a bunch of stuff and worried about a bunch MORE, I have decided I’m gonna play along….

So here it is, in all its wonderous forms:

1. for the ground to dry up. Seriously, the yard at work looks like a swamp and I am tired of cleaning up mud in the office and from my car and off my clothes!! Added to this wonderousness is the fact that the city/town is doing construction on the ONLY road to access the office, and I’m a bit worried that with the mud in the back of the shop being so deep my little neon is not gonna make it out of here tonight.

2. I want to go home. With the construction and the mud and the limited access in and out of here, I just wanna know that when it comes time to get out of here I will be able to GET OUT OF HERE. Seriously, it sucks not knowing if at the end of the day you will be stuck in the mud up to your axles and desperate to get home. I don’t know what will happen if I can’t get out easily… I have to get the kids and we have to get a bunch done tonight for BoyChild’s campout tomorrow night.

3. I want to feel pretty and desirable again. I want someone to CARE when I wear frilly underpants… I want my someone to APPRECIATE me in my frilly underthings. I want to dress up, go out, and be treated like I am enjoyable and desired… just once more in my life, please?

4. I want my boyfriend to want to talk to me once in a while. I don’t want to be the one doing all the phoning and chasing, I want to know that he cares about ME when i’m not there.

5. Karma sharks to get my ex husband. While I struggle to make ends meet he’s cornered me into agreeing not to seek the child support reassessment that I am entitled to (which I would have gone after by now if I had known my rights during this divorce process) thus allowing him to UNDERPAY support for the children for SIX MONTHS. Basically, he deserves something to make HIM feel powerless and small and guilty, the way he always does to ME when he intimidates and threatens me and uses guilt-nuggets to get me to “cooperate for the children” instead of standing up for my LEGAL RIGHTS. BIG FAT HUNGRY KARMA SHARKS!! I don’t expect him to ever care or understand that he should do things because they are right, I just want him to know how it feels to be intimidated and threatened.

That’s pretty much it… I want to stop being muddy, I want to know I’ll be able to get home tonight, I want to be loved and desired, I want to be missed/needed, I want my (soon to be) ExHusband to understand how his bullying makes me feel… So… how about YOU?