Frozen Nowhere

What I feel needs to be changed:    I want to change where I live.
 
What I realized was hurting me

It has been over 2 years since I lived in a home of my own, a space that I can concretely point to and say “this space, here, is MINE”. Yes, I CHOSE to walk away from the home I had owned with theEx… out of fear of reprisal, out of a feeling that this battle just wasn’t worth it — I couldn’t afford the home on my own and even then I knew that he would resist paying support until he was legallyforced to do so, but more than that the house meant more to him than it

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These are not so much resolutions as REALIZATIONS that things have to change, and that now is as good of a time as any to get started. They aren’t NEW realizations, but they have slowly been condensing in the back of my mind for months, and the significant events of the past few weeks — being preapproved for a mortgage, buying a home for myself and my children, getting the divorce closer to being finalized, Yule, Christmas Holidays, New Years, and signing Mortgage Papers — have brought together a scintillating array of facts into clarity suddenly.
 
And I will be making changes… slowly, but surely…
 
Because of the scope of this project, though, I have decided to

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