Frozen Nowhere

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What do you wish for your space?

Since I have just moved into my own home, and I have been trying to get things all set up. I have never really had a place that was MINE. I lived with my parents, I rented, and I lived with theEx, and I rented. This is the first place that I have lived that I do NOT need to ask permission to change things around.  And yet, I hesitate to make many changes… the only rooms that were modified were the kids’ rooms, and even putting my needlework on the wall was a big step.

The SPACE I wish to change right now is my bedroom.

Unlike my kids’ rooms, my room has remained virtually untouched. The walls are still builder beige, and there is very little in the room – my bed (futon), a small used dresser with altar on top, a plastic Rubbermaid storage tub (functioning as a nightstand), a dog carrier that I have to return… and basket  chair (functioning as cat sleeping quarters and hair repository).  There are a few things in the closet, a few things under the bed. A few things on the floor…  But for the most part it is dull and Spartan and very uninspiring.

Because  it is such a monumental undertaking, I can’t conceive of changing everything at once… in steps I would like to see:

COLOUR. I want to replace the builder beige/grey colour with a bright deep green colour. I want to accessorize with colour on my sheets.

BLINDS. Right now I have homemade blue curtains on my window. While I love the colour and pattern of the fabric, there isn’t enough light blocking to keep the place cool in the summer or dark enough to sleep until a decent hour (like, past 5am). I would like to put in something a bit more functional.

BOOK SHELVES. I read. I read a lot. I have some books in my living room, and a bunch still packed away in my basement. But I would like to have a space in my room where I could pull a book from the shelf and read in comfort. I would actually like to have books and knick knacks neatly displayed in my room – craft books, reading books, self-help/creativity books, and journals. I am not sure if I want them bracketed to the wall or a shelving unit put up.

CREATIVE SPACE. One of the big things I would like to have is a place that I can take out and do my creative endeavors – I have been attempting to do art journaling recently, but I also enjoy: journaling, writing, knitting, cross stitch, sewing and scrapbooking. Just to have a desk where I could have my laptop and a printer stored inside – so I can write, blog and print off pictures – but which I can sit down to write journal entries, collage, scrapbook, or create art, if I want to. Something that is a desk/table, but also incorporates computer storage and craft supply storage as well. A place to sit and do things without worrying that someone will come along and judge.

SPIRITUAL SPACE. While having an altar on the 1’ x 1.5’ space on top of the dresser is okay, I would like to have a better space, perhaps out of leap-line for the feline-canadians residing in my home, to remind me of my spirit.

MUSIC. I moved my music player to the kitchen, because I like to listen to music while I cook or clean or be all domesticated… but right now I only have the ONE and I don’t like carting it up and down the stairs… so I want  a music player to go in my room (preferably an iPod dock).

FURNITURE. If I wasn’t on a strict budget of “don’t buy anything which isn’t strictly ESSENTIAL” for a while,  I would actually have FURNITURE in my bedroom. While my futon, dresser, packing tub, and chair are functional they do not engender a feeling of comfort and care.  One of my goals is to get enough out of debt and enough saved up to get a REAL freaking bed, so that the futon can be returned to its life as  a couch and guest bed. I would like to have a dresser with a mirror to do my makeup in (when I have occasion to wear it) and matching set of nightstands with lamps to read by and a real alarm clock.  I would have a Queen sized bed with a nice mattress set and sturdy wooden frame (likely sleigh bed type) and matching dresser/armoire  and 2 nightstands. I would have lamps on both night stands, and house the iPod dock/ alarm clock music player on the stand closest to the door.  I want my bed to be a space where I can read, write, sleep, cuddle, and meditate.

I want to make space that reflects ME. I wish for a space that encompasses what I am and what I like and encourages me to grow. I wish for a space that lets me let down my guard. I want a space that is MINE for once in my life… where I can create or dance or sing or meditate in peace without disturbing  anyone else. I want a space that reflects the who I was, the who I am, and the who I will become…