Yesterday…
… I worked to get my IM working, only to be told that the issue wasn’t with any of the friends on my contact lists.
… I reconnected my email accounts.
… I cried
… I realized that as much as it hurt, it was necessary to let it go.
… I left the lawyer another message.
…I decided to travel even if I had to go alone.
… I wanted to bitchslap someone.
… I wanted a change of scenery.
… I finished my book and realized Ididn’t have another.
… I realized that I didn’t have to forgive and forget, because that is not necessarily a moral “good” in my world.
…I delighted in the colour of my room.
Today…
…I yawned so hard I hurt my jaw.
… I spent 30 minutes arguing with the printer over whether or not there actually WAS a paper jam (there wasn’t, its evil).
…I decided to look into travel plans despite setbacks.
… I asked a friend forgiveness knowing that sometimes things can’t be repaired.
…I made alternate arrangements.
… I wondered at the douchery that is my ex-husband (again).
… I acted as secretary for the ex.
…I lost my patience with the lawyer (again) and am considering just settling the matter once and for all.
… I spent some time thinking about connections.
Tomorrow…
… I will decide if I want to move forward from here.
… I will broach the subject of travel.
…I will look into my heart and see if I want to forgive someone.
… I will realize that you can never go back, only forward.
…I will hope
…I will spend time being quiet
…I will no longer wait to hear your voice.
… I will make plans of my own with no conditions.
Tags: as-I-see-it, feelings, friendship, goals, moving on, my life, relationships
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