I have been feeling pretty bad lately… I haven’t been making the time to write and I have been feeling rushed and confined by a lot of the duties of my daily life. While I realize that my life is what I make of it and that if I want to change it I am the only one who can do so, a lot of things are getting in my way right now and that’s a bit frustrating. Between caring for The Man while he’s been sick (for going on SIX weeks now) with his various colds and things, work, family, home improvements, activities, and other social expectations it often seems like at the end of the day/week/month I’m running a deficit on time for essential meditative reflection.

I have suffered through one mild (but painful) bronchial illness (exacerbated by my asthma) which I had caught from my Love and one horrific day with a migraine just in the last 2 weeks! I rarely get sick anymore, so what a shock to the system to feel the slip-slide of reverting back to the days of frailty and illness that I thought I had left behind.

Now, exactly WHAT does this all have to do with celebrating?

Well… quite a few things, really.

First, even though I have been feeling frustrated with the Man for being sick (even though it can hardly be his fault, it’s more the fact that he almost gets better only to suddenly come down with another illness later that day!) I wish to celebrate that I HAVE The Man in my life to take care of! Yes, I do get tired of playing nursemaid, and it isn’t necessarily fun to catch something no matter how you catch it… but…

I wish to celebrate my happiness in my relationship. So, yes, it can be hard when he’s sick and sleeping all day or not feeling well and not wanting to do anything… but I wish to celebrate having someone there to cuddle and care for (and to care for me).  I accept that with intimacy comes the risk of catching colds and flus and illnesses from my Love, and I realize that I am not willing to give up being close for anything… I will joyfully love and care for him even if I might catch an illness once in a while. It’s a small price to pay for love, and I know that he would do the same for me (because he has).

I also wish to celebrate my health. Sure I got sick… but growing up I would have bronchitis and colds every 2 months in the winter and randomly in the summer. I was sick ALL THE TIME from as early as I can remember until I was 20… and now I am blessed to only catch a cold or have a bronchial event once a year… IF THAT OFTEN. Sure, I still have asthma that flares for a few moments when it gets cold or there is smoke around, and yeah I still have seasonal allergies that make me wanna knock myself out every spring. I am near sighted and I have had to undergo a cervical cancer scan… but almost 90% of the time my body works and feels good! One cold here and there? Pshaw, nothing I can’t handle (and shake off apparently)! I’m gonna celebrate my health WHILE I have it good!

I wish to celebrate having the Man in my life. A year ago things with the Man were bad. Over the course of the first year of our relationship the Man went from being interested and caring, to not wanting to talk, text, chat, visit, or touch…  So I gave up on Reg after a year of nowhere dating.

For 4 months I didn’t see or talk to him at all. Then, out of nowhere, I received a “message” on Facebook from him – the only EMAIL I have received from the Man!!  I responded and a dialog opened. Eventually he found my new phone number and called me and we started talking on the phone for hours every night – something we had NEVER done in the year that we had dated –until he convinced me to get together with him and talk it out.

We’ve been communicating ever since.

To say that things are better now is pretty much an understatement. We communicate regularly. He texts me on the mornings he doesn’t stay over, and he has been staying at my place about 50% of the time. Every night we make a point of talking to each other either on the phone or in bed, before we go to sleep, and when I try to avoid something he knows and he helps me voice it.

I wish to celebrate that we did find each other and that we have decided to work on having a relationship and work towards creating a LIFE together instead of 2 lives completely apart. Instead of avoiding his stressors he’s actively working to fix them and discussing what is going on, and I am doing likewise. I still have issues letting him know what I want (ooh, there is a lot that I would want from him) and I am still a little leery that there might be another “shoe” to drop, but we talk and discuss and PLAN for a future together. And that is worth celebrating.

And I wish to celebrate my new blog:

SoulfulWhimsy.com

Please join me there…