Frozen Nowhere

Even facing “death” can’t slow down my life too much, there is just too much going on, and although I mourn I move and grow and reclaim. At least the attempt at reconnection, rejection, acceptance, and reflection have done one thing for me — I have been able to reclaim one part of my past and reintegrate that shard of who “Pam” was into who “Pam” IS now…

As anyone who might be reading can tell, my writing has flourished in the past few days. It might be shocking to anyone who only knew me in the past 5 or so years to know, but this used to be a daily practice — NaNoWriMo would not have slowed me…

I saw this article on one of my favourite blogs, Moleskinerie,this morning and there was a line that struck a cord with me:

For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete

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One issue I have with keeping up with a blog is that there are just things that I can’t write here. So… in order to get things out that I can’t write in a public forum (never mind that no one knows its here) I write on other journal/blog sites.

Date: August 6, 2008

It seems I am having issues when it comes to writing — both online and in journal books. With the journal books it seems there is so much that gets in the way:

So… I know that I have been remiss in my duties as a blogger. Not that I have ever been the world’s BEST blogger, by far, as I tend to write in fits and spurts despite my best efforts. And I had higher hopes for this blog, but I haven’t managed to get this off the ground in the way that I had wanted to, due mostly to life circumstances that have been more stressful and distracting than I had previously anticipated. 

But as I stated before,things seem to be settling down now. Things are working themselves out and I am fairly sure that there is an end in sight… at least for the upheavally bits (can’t say there is…