Frozen Nowhere

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My life has been… well… turned a bit upside down lately.
Anyone who might read here might have noticed that in the last few days I haven’t written much, which might likely seem a bit unusual for me…
Just know that there are things I don’t blog about, things that hurt too deeply to reveal to the entire universe. Things that keep me feeling frantic and anxious and that nothing in my world can work out right, and that’s kinda the space I am in with things RIGHT now.

I intend to take action on the “things”… as soon as the topsy-turvies in my life…

And here ends another week, with another weekend ready to start (complete with huge amounts of household declutter and cleaning to be done, gym time to be had, and a scrapbooking night… and of course, a visit with RGG and his girls)…
 
So…
 
Things that made me want to tear my hair out this week (in no particular order):
 
Misunderstanding with RGG over our weekend visit
This was definately not a good thing, although it did offer us a bit of a poke in terms of learning to communicate with each other.
 
The issue was that when he and his kids stayed in the 3 bedroom apartment with my kids and I… and I got

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I recently wrote a post about the overwhelming experience of having RGG and his kids stay over the weekend with my kids and I… and I think that the whole event scared RGG (away?) way more than it scared me.
 
Sure, I was overwhelmed. But only PART of that was due to him and his kids being there… hell… my life right now is so overwhelming (divorce, debt, house sale, stalker, STBX, disorganized house, financial worries)…
 
I did feel very much alone in the experience. I felt I was singularly responsible, for the most part, for cooking, cleaning and keeping things sane, and it was a hard thing for me to do because, my dears, I happen

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So while the older kids snored, the younger girls were VERY aggitated. There was much kicking and flailing about, whining, crying, tossing, turning and repositioning on the bed. First they were positioned in between RGG and I, but their restlessness made them fuss louder as they were kicking and flailing and flipping over on each other.

Then we tried a position with RGG, RGG’s daughter, Me, Girlchild… so that the girls were shielded from each other by me. The problem soon became clear that RGG’s daughter didn’t want to be next to me, and she didn’t want to be next to GirlChild and she didn’t want to be on the other bed. RGG and I didn’t want to disturb the

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Immediately upon finishing her pizza G announced she was going to go start her car. I cleaned up after the kids, made sure everything was put in garbage cans and such, wiped up sticky children-types, and tidied up as much as I could, then I went out to start MY car (which hadn’t been plugged in since noon, and at that time the temperature was dropping) and RGG’s car as well, to keep them from freezing up. RGG’s car (SUV, really) started quickly with no protest… so whatever he and his father had done to his battery had done the trick. 
 
My car, on the other hand, was patently NOT IMPRESSED with me and refused to start, despite my frantic attempts to get it to

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