Frozen Nowhere

Okay… so I haven’t been blogging a lot lately. There are a few reasons for this — firstly, the things that have been going in my life are not necessarily things that I want to discuss publicly right now; secondly, I have been busy at home and work and so when I get to write I don’t always get time to post things; and three (and most importantly) I can’t seem to post from work due to issues with WordPress and my work computer… so often I write and write and then get home, and start cleaning the house and… well… FORGET to actually post the entries that I have “in the can”…
 
Yeah. I admit I suck

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Believe it or not, things are super fantastic great right now… other than the tinge of blue I feel at being truely alone for the first time in 2 weeks, now that RGG has gone back to his home in small town Saskatchewan and I am left here with my 2 kittens. I know the blue will settle in on me in the next few hours, and i will get through it, and I know that I will talk to him again on MSN or the phone or text in the next few days… 

The last few weeks have been INCREDIBLE for me. I know I have been away from the blog for this time frame and that means that…

Beyond the sickening fear that my ex is going to fuck my life over even further, I have been having an okay time.
 
One of the things that has been going on is that I have been cutting K out of my life. About 3 weeks ago I “slipped” and allowed him to convince me that he had changed and that he was ready to be my friend rather than to sit around whining all the time about how much he loved me, or, alternatively, how much I had screwed up his life (or rather how he had screwed up his life FOR me). But it was just another round of “feel sorry for me for missing you”

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I don’t expect to get a great deal of work done today. That’s not being silly, its just reality. I’m a bit burnt out this week, and I am looking forward to seeing the “really great guy” later this evening, and Christmas planning is kicking my ass, and I am overwhelmed at work and the guys aren’t in.

Today I am supposed to be doing invoicing. While it doesn’t SOUND difficult, there are a few projects are broken into small “progress” invoices, and this is where things start to get insane. Heck, sometimes we have a fully executed contract, noted and copied at BOTH offices, and we can’t agree on what the contract value is. And then there are…

Okay, so in the last month or so I have finally started to put some thought into what it is that *I* think makes a good relationship for ME. Maybe I should have thought of this years ago, and decided my future based not on whether someone seemed to like me well enough, and might be able to provide for me and future children that we might have, but really think about what qualities that I wanted in a mate — basically before I “settled” for someone I thought would be good to me (which, it turns out that he most certainly was NOT good to me, and even now I laugh when he says “if you need anything, let…