Frozen Nowhere

Maintanance
 
Do men prefer to date high maintanance women?
 
It really seems so sometimes. 
 
I have a confession to make here: I am a low maintanance woman. My friends might actually argue that I am beyond the scope of “low maintanance” in that I will do anything not to be noticably in need of ANYTHING from ANYONE (a point that has, on occasion done more damage than it helped in the relationship). 
 
I’m not entirely sure of the correct balance here. I am not a super girly girl:

• I don’t like pinks and purples and pastels, preferring instead greens and blues
• I don’t scream when I see a spider or a snake or a frog, in fact, I quite LIKE frogs
• I don’t

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But at least I am not going to talk about men and what I want in a dating relationship.

No…

Not right now.

So… a few days ago (Tuesday) I had to go to meet with my son’s educational psychologist at his school. My son has had unidentified “issues” with school environments since kindergarten. I had hoped that he would have outgrown it, but as teacher after teacher signaled him out as having something “wrong” with him, I grew more and more concerned… and, of course, I blamed myself for the difficulties. Oh, there were many reasons that this was MY fault:

*I didn’t know I was pregnant with him until I was 3 months along. During that time,…

Okay… so I think I have had enough sulking on the topic of past friendships… I know, I know… right now, being the season of “death” and “Limbo” this is a very timely issue to deal with. But, seriously, it still hurts and the more I take out the fresh hurt and jab around at it, the less it can heal.

I am okay, I really am. I knew it was coming, which is why I waited so long to try and get in touch with my friend. I knew when he never tried to contact me in a safe way (usually through my mother who hated STBX and everything about him and wanted me AWAY from him a…

I saw this article on one of my favourite blogs, Moleskinerie,this morning and there was a line that struck a cord with me:

For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete

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So, I missed a day, so sue me. I know, it’s not like I can claim that anything is really going ON around here, because, my life really is very boring lately. But there are days I can’t bring myself to write… 

But I will anyway…