Frozen Nowhere

I’ll live… maybe…
 
This week has been the worst week that i have been able to think of since the week I left theEx and lived in fear of what was going to happen to me and my children, which was blissfully topped off by being fired without cause from the job I loved (and where I had a support network of other people who had gone through the same kind of thing)…
 
Yeah. I feel like I am in hell this week.
 
It doesn’t help that I am entirely and utterly ALONE right now. I could use a hug in the worst way, to be touched and held so that I don’t feel like I am completely unlovable.
 
Right now I

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So… like I wrote previously, I was planning on making changes to the set up of my apartment this weekend.
 
And that is just what RGG and I did yesterday.
 
This weekend was GREAT (even despite 4 screaming kids most of the time)…
 
It all started… last week (laugh)
 
(cue wavey lines and flash back type effects here)
Last week I was starting to feel a bit weirded out by the fact that RGG has been having telecommunications issues — basically, for about 1 month I was unable to chat with him on IM and he was not able to call me (and given my cell plan, calling him was getting expensive) and I was

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The problem with the weeks I am alone is… well… that i’m ALONE. Completely and totally alone, and I really start to feel it.
 
When the kids leave its like all the life is sucked right out of my place and I just don’t know what to do with myself.
 
This is new for me.
 
I spent more time as a lone parent while I was married than I did as a parenting duo. I never felt that my marriage was a true partnership, and I was alone a LOT during that 10 years even when he was physically present in our home.
 
So I thought that I was used to being alone, immune to loneliness.
 
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My love life…
 
I really LIKE RGG… I mean a LOT.
 

Liking is enough…
 
Right now, though, I am not interested in pushing anything. I had the feeling, with both STBX and Stalker, that need to push and determine and set a path for a relationship… and this time I am going to breathe, relax, and focus on just liking what I have and seeing where it goes. The thing is, I am not divorced, and neither is he. We both have ex’s that are clinging to our resources, issues with trying to get divorces completed, and different custodial arrangements. We have financial issues, mostly to do with our ex’s, and we have to worry about our

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or… I wonder if he will ever call again after *THAT* night.
So… after last weekend’s mess, you wouldn’t think that I could do anything to top the mess I got myself into. But, that just means that you don’t know me all that well. 
You see… I might have a degree in logistics, but that doesn’t mean that I actually bother to think about the entire logistical network when I am trying to get something done. As an Aries woman I am prone to starting all sorts of projects, drumming up enthusiasm for said project, then abruptly moving onto the next thing that I think up. I also come up with wonderful plans that involve planning and foresight,

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