Frozen Nowhere

I have a confession to make:

I’m not doing well lately.

I have been trying to hide it, trying to put a happy face on, trying to ignore all the things that feel like they are falling down around me while I try to shore up everything at once, trying to believe that I can do this on my own without even the merest sense of friendship or support coming my way.

It’s not working for me (shock, awe, gasps of horror).

I mean, trying to do it all on my own has likely not been working for me for YEARS (and I say this honestly, I was doing it all on my own BEFORE I even considered leaving my

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Today in the life of me…
 
I hate days like this, where i feel like I am under water, dreaming and waiting for my real life to BEGIN. In so many ways it doesn’t feel like my life has started, or more specifically, that I am on hold in my life and just waiting for the ability to move forward.
 
Two weeks ago my LawyerBird finally got back to me regarding his bill. I have to mention, here, that he was SUPPOSED to forward me a copy of said bill at the end of MAY… and today is the ending of August, 3 months PAST the time he promised to…

I am a cusp person.

Astrologically I am considered an Aries/Taurus cusp, being that my birthday is on the day when it switches over from Aries to Taurus. I have been told that I am definitivly an Aries, based on the time and date of my birth… but I still tend to have quite a few Taurean traits as well.

Personality wise, I cusp between introvert and extrovert. No matter how many times I take the MBTI test I cannot get a consistent reading of introversion/extroversion. And for that matter, I can’t make up my OWN mind, which causes me a lot of weird feelings when I’m with groups of people.

You see… I LIKE being involved. I thrive on…

Okay… so I haven’t been blogging a lot lately. There are a few reasons for this — firstly, the things that have been going in my life are not necessarily things that I want to discuss publicly right now; secondly, I have been busy at home and work and so when I get to write I don’t always get time to post things; and three (and most importantly) I can’t seem to post from work due to issues with WordPress and my work computer… so often I write and write and then get home, and start cleaning the house and… well… FORGET to actually post the entries that I have “in the can”…
 
Yeah. I admit I suck

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So… today has been a day of legal issues that need to be addressed.
 
The problem is that “things that need to be addressed” can only be addressed during time that is marked “need to work”. Which means that I have to squeeze talking to my lawyer, checking on payments, getting bank statements issued to me, and answering the inquiries from my lawyer have to all be done during my work hours.
 
Why?
 
Because convieniently (or not so much so) both my lawyer and I work Monday through Friday, 8am to 5pm…. and the bank I have to contact for payment information closes at 4:30pm… and the information line I need to call to talk to

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