Frozen Nowhere

Yes, today I am a giant bundle of annoyed. Most of it I have directed at the legal profession, and more specifically theEx’s lawyer… but to some extent my lawyer is being painted with the same brush too.
 
I just really wish they would say what they MEAN or be CLEAR.
 
But that’s too much to ask of anyone trained in the legal profession, apparently.
 
Or Engineers.
 
Yes… today is “hate the Engineer” day too… follow along here (theEx is/was a Professional Engineer)…
 
There is no way to ruin a day FASTER than to have to talk to a legal representative early in your day and try to figure out what the opposing counsel

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So… its been a while. 
 
My life kinda took a sideways slide last week, which was freaky, scary, unfortunate, and really made me not want to write anything about anything.
 
It took a LOT of talking to the people who matter the most to me, confiding in those I love, and some professional information and advice… but perspective has now been gained.
 
Things are not COMPLETELY resolved… there is still a giant question mark hanging over some aspects of my life, there are still fragments of my relationships that either can or cannot be repaired.
 
For one thing, I do not really know where I stand with RGG right now… but then again, I never

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My life has been… well… turned a bit upside down lately.
Anyone who might read here might have noticed that in the last few days I haven’t written much, which might likely seem a bit unusual for me…
Just know that there are things I don’t blog about, things that hurt too deeply to reveal to the entire universe. Things that keep me feeling frantic and anxious and that nothing in my world can work out right, and that’s kinda the space I am in with things RIGHT now.

I intend to take action on the “things”… as soon as the topsy-turvies in my life…

I am finding myself in a good mood this morning, which is a surprise because I have been feeling a bit uneasy for the past few days and I can’t quite put my finger on WHY.
 
This past month has definately had its ups and downs.
 
Ups:

• RGG said he loved me out loud. I mean, I KNEW that already since we had been dancing around it for a few weeks before he said it, but it was nice that he actually said it out loud. I have to admit that I was kind of shocked, because we had been joking around and watching a romantic movie at the time and he went all suddenly serious on me and told me that he had to tell me something.

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Okay… so I didn’t manage to write all that much last week, which was likely good because by the friday before I went on “vacation” I started to have shooting pains in my right wrist whenever I typed. 

And you know, when typing and writing are so vitally important to you, that kinda sucks. So for the most part I did not do any writing this week. 

Instead I spent MOST of the week with RGG and all the kids.

And you know? I’m STILL not sure with him.

I mean, I love him, and I am attracted to him and I feel really good about things with him. For the most part I haven’t tried to do a

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