Frozen Nowhere

Major Update!!!

So… I’m feeling pretty excited right now…

it looks (to me) like the house has sold!!!..

The realtor called last night to tell me (since theEx is out of the country with the new girlfriend) that he had recieved an offer on the house that I still own with theEx. It was for a mear $10,000 LESS than we had it listed for, and I was ready to jump at the offer right then and there.

This would mean that MOST (not all) of the “marital” debts are paid off — the line of credit, my car, my student loans would be paid off… the only thing that would not be completely paid off would be the…

I know I talk a lot about RGG, but, well… he’s a big part of my life.
 
I’m okay with that.
 
RGG is very different than most of the guys I have hung out with and dated in the past, that is already a given, by the way I feel about him and the ways he has made me feel about our relationship and myself.
 
One thing is very different with RGG than anyone else I have dated before:
 
RGG is a “jock”.
 
I mean, TheEx CLAIMED to have been a jock in high school, but he was way more of a “geek” than he was a jock by the time we met. He didn’t

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What can I say?
 
I’m going to be divorced soon.
 
Can I just say “yay”?
 
Seriously, I am I RELIEVED that I will soon no longer be legally TheEx’s “wife”, that I will no longer to legally tied to him or be pushed into things because he thinks they are right or a good idea or just because he wants to.
 
I know I will have him in my life for a good long time, because of the kids… but I am happy that I will not be his any longer. 
 
Maybe my marriage was a disaster. 
 
Maybe I shouldn’t have married the first guy who asked me, rushing into something I didn’t understand

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Maintanance
 
Do men prefer to date high maintanance women?
 
It really seems so sometimes. 
 
I have a confession to make here: I am a low maintanance woman. My friends might actually argue that I am beyond the scope of “low maintanance” in that I will do anything not to be noticably in need of ANYTHING from ANYONE (a point that has, on occasion done more damage than it helped in the relationship). 
 
I’m not entirely sure of the correct balance here. I am not a super girly girl:

• I don’t like pinks and purples and pastels, preferring instead greens and blues
• I don’t scream when I see a spider or a snake or a frog, in fact, I quite LIKE frogs
• I don’t

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I am feeling better now.
 
I don’t know why I can’t panic silently… I really should just hide in my closet until my freak out is completed and THEN talk to other human beings. 
 
I guess I seek out comfort from other people by being told I am acting crazy. 
 
Sometimes I need that little, “hey, girl you are losing it! Get a grip.” thing from a friend or two.
 
I am over the panic over the future for now. I have decided to accept:

• TheEx is an ass. He has a spending habit and that will likely never change. I could have gotten out earlier, I could have tried to stick it out for longer, but either way his spending

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