This is the hardest part of the year for me, the season of limbo between Samhain and Yule, when everything that is physical slows down and the mental and spiritual aspects of my life rise like cream to the top of my consciousness. The days are getting noticably shorter — it is dark when my alarm goes off at 6am, it is dark while I drive to work, it is darkening when I start off for home… and I know the world is slumbering and the season of “out and about” adventures is done for another year.

Now is that time, at least for me, when the external excitements of the Summer season turn inward to the down home hibernatory activities of the winter season. The wheel has turned, invariably, and now it is time to put away the bikes and scooters and outdoor toys and bring out the snow suits and mittens and scarves. It is the season for sitting quietly and reflecting on the past months behind us — discovering the patterns that life has taken and reflecting on the lessons that we have learned.

And I am well and truely learning my lessons this year. I know in the past i have avoided the necessary introspection on my life that I really needed to attend to in order to fully grow. This year I have made a vow to myself that I will not do that, instead I will be focusing more on what I have learned, the lessons of the past few years, and reflecting on the mistakes I have to move forward from.

And so, a few weeks late (but no less important for that lassitude) I am setting forth my Seasonal Resolutions (to be further discussed in the podcast, don’tchaknow)…

1. Create an altar. I need to find a way to buy or make a wooden box (what I am looking for is what would be called a “cedar chest” or “hope chest” but I am not sure where to find such a thing)which I will set in my living room. This will become my altar box/altar space for my home.

2. Start to write a diary (in a BOOK) consistently. I am finding that I am writing a lot more now, I feel the need to write and type and otherwise express myself in words. Please be assured that 90% of this is intended only for myself, and will change because I am not a “set in stone” type person.

3. Make amends. I need to repair the mistakes I have made in the past and forgive myself. This is the hardest thing that I can do.

4. Be creative. Journalling, writing, scrapbooking, knitting, cross stitch… anything that is essentially pushing me to go beyond myself…

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As I sit here, at work, plodding away trying to recieve all the concrete tickets that have piled up on my desk this past week, I am finding that I am having a hard time concentrating because I very much want to share what is on my mind. So I am taking my “coffee breaks” by writing out the thoughts that come into my mind. I have to remember to post these to the blog when I get home.

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I saw this article on one of my favourite blogs, Moleskinerie,this morning and there was a line that struck a cord with me:

For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.For her, I realized, writing is not an optional pastime. It is part of her core and she needs to do it or live an incomplete life and be an incomplete person.

This is an ariticle in the blog www.TheWritersBag.com, and I really identified a lot with the discussion of the NEED to write, or be “incomplete” in my life or person.

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